Iz eet possible to have an altered ego that takes over your being???
Iz it possible to Love both sides of the Manii Face so f those two Egoz yet same person????
Iz it possible to have Emptiness complete you?
Your more what seems dominating Ego has brought me to fear you... Is that right?
I do not think i can handle being in fear...
You of all people definately know that i don not want to ever be out of control...
But for me to be protected i create a counter ego...
You know all about me
and this counter ego, Skyelar, is an ego to which should be a 'no man's land'...


You asked me, As the Original, Where we are... I say that I am just sitting...
What else do you want me to say, being laughed at for thingz i didn't want to happen...
And now? i Pay the Price for My UndeciSiVe natuRe...
Do i have insecurities?
Am i pathetic because i fear the alter egoz harsh hand upon me?

Anger iz an amazing Emotion.. Or iz it a power within ourselves that just sits and feedz on any negative energies placed into our body...

only to then explode where necessary....

You helped me see how i am...

you helped me learn that getting close to me takes much hard work so i'd rather bare not let people get to close...

too much pain goes with it...

i need repetition with people, consistancey...

do you understand that?

(to be continued)