I LOVE YOU

There's many
hidden secrets,
within this heart...
But stay that heart
be true...
Giving & expanding with the joy
of life...
Yet it will face,
a dpressing
hue...

Talk I of two people
or talk I of a troubled soul,
with many faces,
to keep those in interest...
Not yet a blinded mole...

Going against society
this heart & eyes,
shall stay open wide...
That when this heart is shaken,
Shall thee never utter a lie...

Iz eet possible to have an altered ego that takes over your being???
Iz it possible to Love both sides of the Manii Face so f those two Egoz yet same person????
Iz it possible to have Emptiness complete you?
Your more what seems dominating Ego has brought me to fear you... Is that right?
I do not think i can handle being in fear...
You of all people definately know that i don not want to ever be out of control...
But for me to be protected i create a counter ego...
You know all about me
and this counter ego, Skyelar, is an ego to which should be a 'no man's land'...


You asked me, As the Original, Where we are... I say that I am just sitting...
What else do you want me to say, being laughed at for thingz i didn't want to happen...
And now? i Pay the Price for My UndeciSiVe natuRe...
Do i have insecurities?
Am i pathetic because i fear the alter egoz harsh hand upon me?

Anger iz an amazing Emotion.. Or iz it a power within ourselves that just sits and feedz on any negative energies placed into our body...

only to then explode where necessary....

You helped me see how i am...

you helped me learn that getting close to me takes much hard work so i'd rather bare not let people get to close...

too much pain goes with it...

i need repetition with people, consistancey...

do you understand that?

(to be continued)

Iz Eet PossiBlE TeW FeEl SeW UnBeliEvAblY DepreSseD In A StaTe ThaT I HavEn'T BeEn In In AgeZ!!
I'M ScarEd. . .
I NeEd AtTenTioN.. I FeEl ThaT My EmpTyNeZ AnD LacK Of GoOd SenSe HaZ BacK FiReD MaJoRlY... I HavEn'T BeEn BacK HerE SinCe.. 2009, WheRe ArE ThOz WhO KepT MeW GoiNg ThEn.. WhY Am I StiLl BreAthIng I ShOulD JusT DisApPeaR NaW1 WilL MiZ My PeTy ExiStenCe.. I Am JuSt WasTinG AiR...
(TeW BeW ConTinUeD)

My ThoughtS...

WhaT teW thinK wheN arounD someonE whO haZ thE thinG yoU wanT?

I jusT changeD mY stylE oF typinG... bleH!
SeW mY boyfrienD haZ recentlY goT himselF involveD iN thiZ AmericaN BloG ThinG, TiZ AweshroOm, BuT TheN WhY DeW I SounD SeW BleaK StilL... FaceBoOk, TwitteR, BloG, VampirefreakS, MySpacE, ... WhaT NexT?

SeW I GeT TuneD BY RandomZ AbouT MY WaY Of TypinG, It Is StartinG TeW PizZ MeW OfF FoR ThE SolE Reason ThaT Can'T I JusT BeW WhateveR I WanT TeW BeW JusT BecausE??????!!!!!!!

MaN!

Biology

What tew think when yew are talking abowt micro-organismz....

Joyous if yew askeh mew...
Im SittinG NexT TeW ThE CwazIeZ MofO ArownD I SweaR YeW WilL BeW ScareD!!!!

OtheR SidE Of MeW I GoT ThiZ GuY WhO OncE AgaiN In MY EntirE ExistencE Haz Fuct ArownD WitH MeW!!!
HoW CaN GuyZ ContinueZlY DeW ThiZ YeW MusT AlL BeW ConspirinG AgainsT MeW! SigH, I Am WitH WhaT SeemZ LikE ThE OnlY MaN WortH My TimE AnD I Am GoinG TeW GivE MeW AlL TeW HiM FoR I DeservE TeW BeW TreateD WitH Major RespecT ThaT ClearlY My Bf IZGivinG MeW, My AttitudE 2warD OtheR<> WilL NoW ChangE!!

I'vE BeeN FucT FoR ThE LasT TimE!!!!!

A Story By My Baby

Outside My Windows
I Look At Your Face
I Wave My Hand
But Your Not Really There
Just A Figment Of My Imagination
I Close My Eyes Again
There You Are (How Are You)

Can't Wait For My Sheep
To Take Me Away To A Better Place
A Place For You And Me
Walking Hand In Hand So We Can Touch The Sky
I Close My Eyes To Sleep
To Get A Taste Of Death, Cause To Die Is To Know You Were Alive
For If I Die Tonight, I Know
That You'll Be With Me

What Can Be Said?
You're My All, You're My One, You're My Everything
How Can It Be That In Daylight
We Are Never Seen
But As The Nightshade Covers The Sky
We Embrace For Eternity
We Are The Children Of The Night
Now Take My Hand And We'll Go Off In Flight

A Story By My Baby

Outside My Windows
I Look At Your Face
I Wave My Hand
But Your Not Really There
Just A Figment Of My Imagination
I Close My Eyes Again
There You Are (How Are You)

Can't Wait For My Sheep
To Take Me Away To A Better Place
A Place For You And Me
Walking Hand In Hand So We Can Touch The Sky
I Close My Eyes To Sleep
To Get A Taste Of Death, Cause To Die Is To Know You Were Alive
For If I Die Tonight, I Know
That You'll Be With Me

What Can Be Said?
You're My All, You're My One, You're My Everything
How Can It Be That In Daylight
We Are Never Seen
But As The Nightshade Covers The Sky
We Embrace For Eternity
We Are The Children Of The Night
Now Take My Hand And We'll Go Off In Flight

The Beginning random

Let mew see..
Okeh first things first!
I have mew own Lishguage, its called 'Alilish'.
Respect what i am and what i own.
Its patented I think but wara!